What really freaks me out is that repeated actions tend to blend together. Much like how Daniel Radcliffe always wears the same outfit every day to throw off paparazzi, my memory can no longer distinguish locking the door today and locking the door yesterday. It’s frightening when one realizes that to your brain, there is no difference between actual and perceived experiences and when experiences repeat themselves ad nauseum without anything to identify a specific instance, then actual experiences can easily get confused.
Basically, I’ve always had the problem in life that I’m never sure if I am actually remembering something that happened at the specific moment I remember it, or if the same thing happened on another day and I basically fucked up today, or, and this is the worst case scenario, I actually dreamed of that situation and it never happened and I am getting it confused with reality.
I think I just might need help… too much existentialism… too much nihilism.